CHARM OFFENSIVE

I caught a glimpse of a former life
A swan in sunlight sparkling bright
When I lived and loved and laughed and cried
Could smell the summer and taste the wine
Long before the world stopped spinning
And the complications took a hold
Long before the shame and heartache
Of my very slow decent

Could I forgive myself at all?
Without the pride before my fall
A self-appointed martyr to the rain
Nothing to lose, so much to gain
I’m not a number on a scale
I won’t count the times that I have failed
Can I learn to love what can’t be loved?
So slow to praise, so quick to judge
Wipe out half a lifetime of neglect
And rebuild my tattered self respect
Stumbled far too long in monochrome
Light up the way, I’m coming home

And through the fear and through the loathing
With new-found courage stood my ground
Turning poison into medicine
To turn my life around

I’ll break the shackles, scale the wall
End my addiction once and for all
Now the heroine has left the stage
The final act is now on an empty page

And through the fear and through the loathing
With new-found courage stood my ground
I’m turning poison into medicine
To turn my life around
And through the hate and through the loathing
With new-found courage spread my wings
Break through the stigma and the trauma
See how my freedom now begins